Alright, just a quick (quick, hahaha
) update to let you know that things are going to be slow, or even non-existent, starting this week.
Because, as you may or may not know: I am actually going to restart school on Wednesday.
And if I´m really honest, each time I think about it I can feel my anxiety level skyrocketing. But a girl´s gotta do what a girl´s gotta do, right?
I have an info reunion Tuesday afternoon, but the actual classes will start on Wednesday morning.
So, what is this all about? The grade I will get if I pass, that is - is called the Brevet de Technicien Supérieur
. Fancy-ass French thingie that even I don´t know how to properly translate, because I have no idea whether there even exists an English equivalent. My course is called Media Writing
, and I get to what that entails in just a second, but it´s a two-year course, with a focus on theory in year one, and alterning theory and internships in year two - I believe you could even start with the internships in year 1, but don´t quote me on that. The useful thing about the internships is that they do indeed qualify as work experience, so they will actually be useful for résumés and whatnot.
A friend of mine is starting year two this week - this is actually how I learned about this course. I was just too late to enroll last year. But yeah, she sent me her schedules from last year, and if they are anything like that this year, I´m going to have two language classes (you can choose to focus on English and French, or English and German, or even German and French. Think I picked English and German?), a Coding class (HTML and stuff), Creative Writing, Media History, Media Law (although I think that´s semester 2) - amongst others, but you get the gist of it.
Classes are from Monday to Friday. They start around 08 AM and stop around 04:30 PM. I need about an hour by train to get from my place to there, so...yeah. Do the maths yourselves. I usually don´t need that much sleep, but as long as I don´t know how big the workload is going to be in terms of homework and actual studying or projects, I cannot say for sure how much time I will be able to dedicate to drawing, or to being present online at all. All I know is that I will
show up from time to time, because chatting with friends helps me to unwind, and hey - we all know that I can be one hell of a procrastinator. I will try and do my best, but I gotta be honest with myself here. Likewise, I love drawing too much to stop altogether with it; it´s just going to be incredibly slow.
So what happened to university, you might ask? I completely scratched that off my list. I LOVED my year at the University of Luxembourg and had to switch because it was only a one year program back then. They extended it to a full Bachelor´s this year, and I actually tried to apply, until I ran into a technical problem during the online application process. And that´s the only way to apply. So I wrote e-mails that never got replied to, I went there in person and was met with a clueless employée; I phoned them and asked if there was a techniical support department I could call, only to be informed that there was none, and they even went so far as to tell me in the face: "Ma dann hudd Dir Pech, Madame
." The polite Luxembourgish way to shrug and toss a "tough luck, buddy" into my face. After which I thought: "You know what, uni.lu? You can kiss my freaking ass."
And the years I spent in Trier? Worst experience of my life. I did play it down in front of my study buddies, but I was so miserable there, out of various reasons. First, in the first year I went there, I learned less than in the first three months at the University of Luxembourg. Secondly - the nerve of some of the teaching staff? We had impossible class times sometimes, and there was that one class we would have really loved to take because it seemed very interesting, and was perfect from a scheduling point of view, but it seemed like no places were available anymore. So we sent the teacher an e-mail and asked if he could put us on his waiting list, just in case two students would drop out, so we could take their places. We got a nasty-ass reply, telling us that he didn´t want any students who only picked his class because it seems easy, only to fail it anyways. And as for scheduling - he didn´t believe us that there´s only one train per our running from Luxembourg to Trier, and that we were just too lazy. If anyone wants a link to the train schedule? It comes in .pdf format, and there you can see that the train does, to this day, only run once an hour, except for around 4 or 6 PM I believe, when the InterCity runs - which we were not allowed to take with our student cards because the fee for that one was not covered. So there´s that.
And just - the whole thing. I was dreary and sad almost all the time, to the point on which I had to summon all my forces to actually get out of bed, and at one point I just stopped going altogether and dropped out officially. Because the very thought of going there made me physically sick. My whole enthusiasm was gone, and I just felt disgusted with myself, and the whole world around me. All because of a school. The whole experience definetely ruined university for me, maybe even school as a whole.
Because I am so terrified of going back, you have no idea. I am so scared of messing it all up and being completely overwhelmed with it, that my stomach actually hurts. But I´ll try to hang in there as best as I can, so I can actually get some type of degree to actually do something with my life. As much as I love being a housewife - a job pays bills. Plus the money you earn allows you to travel, and to buy books.
And this seems to be one of my ultimate life goals - to travel, and to buy loads of books.
I´m still going to host my event, though. That won´t be any problem. Just letting you lovely people know what´s up if I get quiet. :3
But yes. If the Earth doesn´t split in half by then I am actually going to attend the Steampunk festival here in Luxembourg together with my cousin Chaosvin
next Sunday, and another lovely person I haven´t met yet, and we are going to cosplay!
She´s doing Sebastian, the yet unknown lovely person will ne Ciel, and I´ll bring back Meirin. So I´m realy really looking forward to that, and I´m pretty sure there will be pictures. So yay!